I wonder why I never have anything coherent to blog about anymore. It seems like I always have the most interesting thoughts right after I read blogs, but by the time I get around to blogging, all the fire has gone out of me. Maybe it's for the best. I'm not "fan" enough to get into most of these fights. I mean, I have what one unfinished fanfic (which I AM trying to get around to writing).

Sei-neko: We all believe that. It's been almost two months.
Kamui-neko: Forget about her. She cares not for us anymore. *sulks*
Nayami: Hey, I do have many plans for YOU. Most of these involve a change in hairstyle, attire, and...physique. :P
Sei-neko: *snicker*
Nayami: Don't think you're gonna get out of this either.
Sei-neko: You lie!
Nayami: We'll see.
Yuuto-neko: Someone else gets tortured! Someone else gets tortured! *bounces up and down and flaunts fluffy tail*
Sora-neko & Ara-neko: You forgot about us?
Nayami: No, but believe me you don't want to be involved in this one. This is simply an experiment.
Inuki-chan: *bark bark*
Yuzu-neko: Inuki senses something bad.
Nayami: *whistles and disappears*
Subaru-neko: *hides under paws and twitches* Please tell me this won't me in a dress.
Nayami: *calls back* Not YOU anyway!

QaF season 2 finale was...um...yeah. That's all I have to say about that. Oh and Ethan is okay. He's kind of corny when it comes to speeches, but it's nice when he plays his little guitar. I like Ben though. Much much better than David. And Rage is cool. The mere idea of turning Brian into a comic book hero (cold-hearted ad exec by day and defender of the oppressed by night) is so lame, but so fun. And Zephyr and J.T. *dies* The rest would be spoilerific so I shall stop here. But as for Ted and Emmett.....

 
Quick note on recent Asuka topic: Sakurazukamori Subaru is mad hot, but I would have liked to hear about about the life/death situation of Aoki and Karen. I'm sure someone will fill the others in on things soon. I am grateful to get any information as soon as possible though. So I think it's great that Aoi gave us a piccie and some lines of dialogue. I only regret that so many people care more about that quick scene than a storyline that has been building up for the past few months.

On other topics, she is totally right about the Lilo & Stitch movie. It is one of the better Disney movies I have seen in some time. The proper attention was paid to both the characters and storyline. Best of all the overall plot wasn't steamrolled by a plethora of special effects as with some of the recent animation flicks. I thought the character designs were somewhat odd. I can't believe that all the girls in Hawaii had such large legs. But the aliens were soo cute, especially Stitch. I just love how all the characters had such hilarious attitudes. The jokes were actually FUNNY and the drama was believable, even though the story was so outrageous. I was quite pleased. ^_^ Then, I also saw that strange trailer for a space-version Treasure Island and now I just have to see it when it comes out next November. I just hope that since it is such an early release that it sticks relativelys to the story and doesn't just play with its CGI. Oh yeah, and Jim Hawkings better not have some lame-ass girl ruining him.

Love the deity idea. ^__________^

Wow! The guy who plays Anakin can play a goth? I don't believe it? And he looks good? Maybe it is possible. I've seen him without his SW get-up and he looks relatively decent.

Oh, I found a new friend. *waves* We both adore TelevisionWithoutPity. I am so totally addicted to reading all the shows I watch now. Both the Buffy and the Smallville's are priceless. Though their QaF reviewer has a certain charm. I don't think they like Brian very much. They have to be practically the only one on Earth, besides Celes. And they hate Parker from SFU, which is fine with me because I think she is a real bitch.

 
I want to get a domain up but all the financial troubles I've been having are kind of top priority right now. So I guess this means that when I get my internet back fulltime next week, I'll have to do all my updating of my Sorashi page on the usual page. Hopefully, my second update will be with the new domain. I also want to have a new chapter of Psychosis up by the time I get a new domain.

Waaah! All your drawings make me want to see HunterXHunter more than ever now. I have no money and my net-downloading is beyond slow. This just isn't fair!

I had more social blogging to do, but I forgot what it was about. So I'll just close with this quaint quote from TelevisionWithoutPity.

"And now we quickly head back to the International House of Mancakes (which incidentally is located in the same strip mall as John & Walter's House of Pies, Clark & Lex's Chicken 'n' Waffles, and Angel & Wesley's Hair Force One salon)"

That is just too funny. It's in relation to the Season Finale of SFU with Keith/David. I just love the critics of TelevisionWithoutPity. They are mean bastards sometimes, but they are damn good and funny at it.

 
*happy jumps* I get to go to Six Flags tomorrow. Only problem is that I lack a bathing suit and I'm supposed to find one on the way there. This is forgetting to account how horribly long I usually take to choose anything and how I have big decision-making issues. That alone tells me that tomorrow is going to be quite interesting.

I also want to try and see the Disney movie this weekend. I'm curious what exactly they are going to do with it. Maybe I can pick up those tacks I need to finish postering my room. I have been unable to get to a store because my father and brother keep going to all the new Ironbird games. You think he could bring me back some measly tacks but nooooo. Oh yes, my father also keeps forgetting my vitamins. I think that's the reason that I sleep so late now. The vegetarian diet is killer on my metabolism. I usually can stay up pretty late and still wake up at a decent hour. I did it all the time when classes were going on. I need to get back on my schedule. I wouldn't mind waking up at ten everyday. I hate wasting time by waking up at 2 or 2:30.

I'm also trying to negotiate getting to stay at my dad's house so I can watch the Season 2 finale of Queer as Folk. I just want to know if Justin and Ethan break up or not. I'm sure the other characters will be interesting as well. But Justin is my favorite, even if he is a mini-Brian lately. ><

 
Ah yes, I've been meaning to post my inspirational quote of the week. This one comes from the season finale of Six Feet Under Season 2. This is a rough quote since I saw the ep about three weeks ago and may not remember it exactly. I'll try to repost it once the transcripts become available.

"A mother's job is to try. We always try and most of the time we fail. It doesn't matter. It's the trying that counts. It's the trying that makes you feel loved. You have to give me a chance to try."

Ruth Fisher to her son, Nate Fisher, on finding out about his disease and his upcoming operation.

 
For anyone who was talking to me through AIM tonight, sorry I had to leave early. I am in my brother's room to use the computer and he was in a bit of trouble. He kind of got punished in here and I'm really not allowed to be in the same area as him when he's being reprimanded. It kind of defeats the purpose. ^^ I guess I'll talk to you ladies tomorrow then.

 
I think I will finally get my internet back next week. It will be my usual slow internet, but at least it will be back in my room. Then, maybe I can work on my TV situation. In the meantime, I've been making my room feel more comfortable again by locating all my posters/anime/manga. The posters help my room lose its emptiness and the anime/manga just are fun to stare at and think, 'Whoa! That's a lot of money there.' Finding them all was pretty tough. Most of the Blueseed tapes, Bubblegum Crisis tapes, Yami no Matsuei tapes, and a couple of Kenshins were in the same box along with all the manga and my CDs. The DVD's and American graphic novels were in another. I had to get the largest box full of Sailormoon, Digimon, CCS, Kenshin, Fushigi Yugi, and Mahou Tsuki Tai from the top self. It almost crushed me. >< Stupid dad!

I also think my muses have finally returned and as soon as I can remember, I think I will write again. My new job is a sort of on/off thing and aside from the perks such as really expensive software programs for free, I'm not sure what I think of it. The pay is low, but at least it gives me something to do with my time. It does get kind of boring out in the woods. Though the different types of birds and animals that show up are amusing. I entertained myself yesterday hunting down some moths and fireflies. I also fed the pretty black cat. Noir is a cutie. Strangely enough, I miss my rottweiler. I guess I'm just suffering from pet deprivation. Muriland the fish is just not enough. I do get to see Louis and Buffy once a week and that's pretty cool, I guess.

 
I think I will finally get my internet back next week. It will be my usual slow internet, but at least it will be back in my room. Then, maybe I can work on my TV situation. In the meantime, I've been making my room feel more comfortable again by locating all my posters/anime/manga. The posters help my room lose its emptiness and the anime/manga just are fun to stare at and think, 'Whoa! That's a lot of money there.' Finding them all was pretty tough. Most of the Blueseed tapes, Bubblegum Crisis tapes, Yami no Matsuei tapes, and a couple of Kenshins were in the same box along with all the manga and my CDs. The DVD's and American graphic novels were in another. I had to get the largest box full of Sailormoon, Digimon, CCS, Kenshin, Fushigi Yugi, and Mahou Tsuki Tai from the top self. It almost crushed me. >< Stupid dad!

I also think my muses have finally returned and as soon as I can remember, I think I will write again. My new job is a sort of on/off thing and aside from the perks such as really expensive software programs for free, I'm not sure what I think of it. The pay is low, but at least it gives me something to do with my time. It does get kind of boring out in the woods. Though the different types of birds and animals that show up are amusing. I entertained myself yesterday hunting down some moths and fireflies. I also fed the pretty black cat. Noir is a cutie. Strangely enough, I miss my rottweiler. I guess I'm just suffering from pet deprivation. Muriland the fish is just not enough. I do get to see Louis and Buffy once a week and that's pretty cool, I guess.

 
Yeah, no more hiatus. Sorry, me's busy. And not with projects or sites or jobs or anything like that, just with life in general. Though I always try to read my blogs everynight, I often see little reason to write much. I would love to social blog, it's just that at this time in my life, I'm kind of a bit bitter. So when I read about people who have nothing better to do than complain about shallow things (which I normally love to join in on ^^) or gush about this or that fictional element/character, I just get jealous that they don't have more serious things to take up their time. I don't hold anything against anyone personally. It's just that I can't help feel a bit of resentment. I'm sure it will pass in time.

I took one of those tests yesterday to judge my mental age. I got 20 but I'm not linking it because I believe it's wrong. I never act my age. I always act way lower or somewhat above. I have also learned that most 20 year olds rarely act 20. They still act a bit juvenile. Why shouldn't they? So they have a bit more responsibility, they still have the world at their fingertips and people to fall back on if things go wrong. They aren't actually adults yet, because unless they are out on their own without much support from their parents, they are not fending for themselves. The truth is most older people (between ages of 18 - 23) don't really want to completely take care of themselves. They want freedom, but also a sense of stability. A knowledge that they will still be supported if something doesn't work out right. I know I sure do.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm really old with all the responsibility that falls upon me and the constant worries that plague me. But I actually believe my mental age is more like 14. I look and I act it a great deal of the time. The first part annoys me while the latter is kind of fun. Yeah, I still watch all the kiddie shows. I jump at new Disney movies, new animated things on HBO, nifty little toys. I constantly love to fiddle with things from destroying paper/coke cans to just messing with Legos/building blocks that belong to my niece. I like to pretend to be things and chase both my brother and niece around. And I'm still big on the whole imagination aspect. I guess it kind of helps me in my writing since I do LOVE to act lots of scenes out, especially fighting or scenes with a lot of movement.

I guess my obsession with anime/fandom is part of that. I don't really need a group to hang with to enjoy it. Sure, I'd enjoy discussing it with people, but I don't absolutely need to. I still read GW fics, even if they suck. I admit it. Hell, I used to visit Digimon sites not too long ago. I have my X fun and my random bishonen craze. I could try to give up the fangirlish ways, except I find ordinary life terribly boring. I like being able to space out with friends on things like Buffy/QaF/random anime or on my own with things like writing/popular anime. It's my way of getting my mind off things. I don't like accepting my age and growing up. Yes, I still go through the proper channels and take the steps I need to in order to advance life and stuff. But I like to mess around along the way.

When I can't, I just feel generally down. I need my childish fun in order to deal with things. I believe I'm gonna end up one of those adults who just is too kid-like for their own good. It doesn't bother me much. Okay, so maybe some people may think it's weird or whatever, but it's what I like. Pleasing people has rarely made me happy. It is often an incredible hassle.

 
The MTV Movie Awards is rigged. Hardly anyone who deserved to win did. How could Mandy Moore win for her performance in that horrific movie. The girl from A Knight's Tale should have won. Well, if the Mega-Slut, Ms. Spears, would have won, I wouldn't have watched the rest of the awards. I am glad that Reese Witherspoon won for her performance in Legally Blonde. That movie was truly hilarious. But why did LotR have to win for best picture? Furthermore, why did Orlando Bloom win anything? He barely did anything in the movie and had no personality. He doesn't even look that cute without his Legolas make-up. >< SHALLOW!!! Colin Hanks did much better in his movie, even if he wasn't as "aesthetically pleasing." =P

And did anyone else think that Ewan looked a bit high during the awards? He couldn't keep focused and kept missing words. He appeared zoned the entire time. And his attire!! It would have been acceptable any other time. But as lame and pathetic as it is, the MTV Movie Awards is an award show. One should dress up a tinny little bit. Such as Mr. VinDisiel. Yummy!!^^ Though Jack Black definitely stole the show with his humor. He is great! Sarah Michelle Gellar could have been funnier though. She was pretty good in that LotR spoof. *giggles*

 
I finally convinced Dad to let me have my mini-Matt Damon marathon. So far on the agenda is All the Pretty Horses (HBO), Dogma (rent), Ocean's 11 (rent), The Rainmaker (rent), Talented Mr. Ripley (rent), and Titan AE (HBO). Yes, I even worship Matt in animated form, even if the rest of the world hated the movie. I could also watch The Legend of Bagger Vance (Max), but it's too boring for even my obsession. Damon simply cannot overpower the lameness of golf. ><

Neopets is hard for me. Probably just because I'm not very good at what other people excell at. But it is addictive and I am having fun so I might keep playing for a while. I love the design for my Kyrii. It looks almost exactly like how I want Lucius to look in my next story, Relapse. Too bad, he's not black. I also wish I could change the color of the eyes. They are supposed to be mismatched. He is supposed to be a lesser demon after all.

I need to get around to writing my Chp. 40, but the boys appear to be very angry with me and refuse to cooperate until I come up with something better. Well, Erik and Tye still want to play so I guess I can work with them for a while. And if I continue to get such insubordination, I'll just devote my next writing block to Clamp Kitty Campus. Sora-neko, Yuuto-neko, Aoki-neko, and Fuuma-neko are always up for attention. Aoki-neko is a little down because he and Karen-neko didn't get much attention last time.

Heh heh, my brother really hates it when I tell him he looks like Justin from QaF. He cries for a while and says, "I don't wanna look llke a queer." He does brighten up when I tell him that Justin has perfect hair. ^_^

 
As soon as I'm able to get out of the house again, I'm going to be sure to get one of the following: Vagrant Story and its Strategy Guide since I hear it's mad hard, or The House of Kanze which was recommended to me by Jaden.

If that's not possible, I at least want a longer cable extension so I can try to reach the main outlet in my brother's room. It should hold me off for a little while until I get DSL and it should make writing faster. I just hope my collection of stuff in my boxes in the basement doesn't get soaked by all this rain. I still have to find my Tokyo Babylon translation cd.

Also, I was thinking about Gravi yesterday. I'm not sure which magazine it is serialized in. I would appreciate any information on how far the story has progressed since the last volume was released. I've just been in a Gravi mood lately. Maybe it's all that crappy fanfiction I've been reading. People need to learn how to write both Eiri and Ryuuchi.

 
What's with all the electrical storms that my area has been having lately. Yesterday, one managed to knock out our power until midnight. We had to use candles and radios and everything. Add that to the fact that we are in the middle of the woods and had no working telephone connection and one could see why we weren't pleased. So we pretty much just sat around and listened to country music.

And for anyone who cares to know, my email is probably trying to piss me off. So if, under the extremely rare situation, that you sent me any mail at nayami@dragonslave.com since Sunday, I won't get it. Please make sure to send to anm2k@cs.com if you want to tell me something.

Oh, I got a Neopet. I might post his picture lately. Right now, I'm pretty addicted to the game but that will probably change within a week. Oh well, I'll try to take good care of my widdle fwuffball.

 
Wows! Toonami has some weird shit now. I was flipping through the channels the other day and not only did I discover that Cartoon Network has decided to renew Sailormoon. But it has also acquired some show about talking hamsters who sing and run on mini-adventures. Now, I will admit that the little critters are unbelievably cuuute but the whole concept is way too immature for Toonami's usual audience. I have no idea why they picked it up when they could have chosen some other things.

 
For some strange reason, I am unable to write properly without having ready access to the internet. Not sure when I will get back my normal schedule. I do miss most of the people I usually talk with before 10 pm. But since practically EVERYONE feels that I'm simply "complaining too much" and I'm just in general sick of feeling weird, I will restrain myself from sharing my problems. I guess a tiny worry ulcer won't be that bad.

So onto my so-called "happy topics."

I finally got to see all of the first season of Queer as Folk. I would like to bludgeon whoever had the audacity to post the season finale without a spoiler warning since they mangaged to severely piss me off. Despite that, I found QaF somewhat enjoyable. Michael, Brian, and Emmett are fun to watch. Lindsay and Melanie have their moments, though they are at the best whenever they are bickering with Brian. Ted is okay as long as he's with one of the main cast, otherwise he is as boring as he constantly gripes about. Justin is my favorite just because. I had to stay up until 9 am in order to finish off the season.

I have my Harry Potter DVD and went through the trouble of getting all the extra scenes. The best is the "Leg-Locked Charm" scene with Neville, of which Seamus Finnigan is definitely the star. Two good things that HP DVD is good for: Oliver scenes ^^ and Hagrid's stretched humor. Watching the DVD even made me want to read the books again. Unfortunately, I was only able to find Azkaban and Goblet of Fire. I know my sister lost Chamber of Secrets a while back, but I'm pretty sure that the first book is still somewhere in my old box of things. I still have to get around to bringing up all my tapes and manga up to my new room so I can redecorate it. I'm sure that yaoiful posters will brighten my days a little.

I really want to see the Bourne Identity but only because I'm a Damon-fanatic. I even want to go see Spirit just to hear his voice as the narrator of the horse. I wish my Dad would go out and rent Ocean's Eleven so I could see how Damon works with Clooney and Pitt.

 
This is evil but it's cute. I just had to post it. And I know that someone else already posted it. I just wanted to share it with anyone who hasn't seen it.

 
About not blogging for a while, returning home has returned me to the current problems of our household. Way too many to list. Let's just say that I can only get online at night and I find it near impossible to find time to do much of anything around here. I hope I get my DSL soon. I really want to set up my server and do some net shopping.
I really miss my old computer. This one won't even let me upload files without hours of hassle. I finished both of my newest chapters and can't upload them because the only computer with the internet is fickle. I'm trying to use some warped method of saving files and such.
Social blogging would take too long tonight. So I'll just wait until next time. Though I do want to send a quick hug to Kurot and Emiko who seemed to have missed me.